Immediate concerns

I really need to start organizing a meeting with Winnie and gang during this festive period. We really need to catch up!

In addition, a class gathering with my secondary school mates would be nice!

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I'm optimistic about this year. Period. It'll be the year I would have been working for.

emo?

Emo? Actually I don't. I am always joyful.

Edgy moments.

I'm feeling super edgy today and I have no idea why. Another stupid week to go. I wish I could study again, go out to the beach and talk with the person I like all day long. I've got a new hobby..to talk on the phone all day! haha quirky? Let me see.. if that works out fine on a regular basis..

A song thats touches you

Deluge- Open up the sky

Our beloved Father, please come down and meet us
We are waiting for Your touch

Open up the heavens, shower down your presence
We respond to Your great love
We won’t be satisfied with anything ordinary,
We won’t be satisfied at all

Open up the sky, fall down like rain
We don’t want blessings, We want You
Open up the sky, fall down like fire
We don’t want anything but You

Our beloved Jesus, we just wanna see You
In the glory of Your light.
Earthly things don’t matter, They just fade and shatter
When we’re touched by love divine.

We won’t be satisfied with anything ordinary
We won’t be satisfied at all

Open up the sky, fall down like rain
We don’t want blessings, we want You
Open up the sky, fall down like fire
We don’t want anything but You

Here we go, let’s go to the throne
The place that we belong, right into His arms

We won’t be satisfied with anything ordinary,
We won’t be satisfied at all.

An act of deliberacy.

6 months since the last update

It had been 6 months since my last update. I wanted to deliberately not update because I want to see how much I have grown since 6 months ago. Personally I liked the way I am now because I can see myself maturing from a boy of shaky mentality to a real man who can be responsible for his every decision. Thank God for shaping me in the last few months because I believe it made up for my stagnant growth over the last 4 years.

Last time I always ran always from my problems, be it not attending difficult lessons to even avoiding people whom I didn’t trust. Now to think of it, it was complete stupidity. If I had been more responsive of my own actions, I would not be losing friends, losing my identity and more importantly be associated in a faith so late in my life. For the past year, I knew I had made God proud for sticking with my convictions. In my own personal prayers, I look to building myself up, picking up from where I left off in the year 2008.


: Thank God for overcoming sleepiness and laziness. I feel like a new person called Tian Cheng.

Emo (Dated 31102008)

Dear Tian Cheng

In the midst of adversity and boy do you get emotional easily.

It is seldom that I get sleepless nights and if I do get one, it must have been something in my thoughts that kept me from entering alpha-mode. I do not know what happened to me in the sequence of yesterday and this morning to the time I was writing this. Did God really speak to me? Alas, the breakthrough that I really wanted!

I must really admit that it had been years since I last cried because I learnt to be a man since my very tender age. Emotional and thinking of inner reflection, my inequities and the like. I’d admit I have high expectations which I realized I have not met for recent years. Just feeling wasted as an individual as I dwell on my past mistakes in life, hence feeling obsolete and redundant. Someone asked me if I could go back into time, what would I do? I’d say I would have been more decisive in my actions. Join Boys Brigade, accept the offer to be council head and study with passion. God wanted me to learn the hard wayJ.

Did I have identity issues? My heart wanted to lead but my 14 year old brain thought that I wasn’t up to it. So I’d just follow people. I liked listening to people, for it puts a façade over me. I solve other people’s problems, ignoring my own, thinking that Superman could save others not himself. I laugh at others, create jokes and be the joker, only to find that the sorrow doesn’t eradicate at all. (Some of the issues I faced as a teenager)

I now sincerely hope that the God I serve will put me at ease, for I have been literally crying, emotionally moved for God -knows- many –reasons. I hope to share more with people I call friends. Let me share. Let me cry again.

P.S : Its incoherently thought and haphazardly put into a letter, though I wish the idea can be conceived by readers, if any. ( because it’s a private blog?)

Signing off,

Tian Cheng.

Praying: Church be my lifestyle, friends whom have left me that I can rekindle my friendship with them again.