Cell outing.

15th Jan'08
Cell outing was held in Pasta-mania at Harbourfront shopping centre. Although not all the people went for the short gathering, I'm glad everyone enjoyed themselves- the games, the ambience and the gathering. Well i'm proud to say I organised the games, one of which is titled "Water-synthesis". However, the organisation of the game was disrupted as many people didn't bring their water bottles as instructed. So I've got to improvised on the spot. Hmm. Enough said, it was a fantastic experience for all of us to be able to enjoy each other's company.

My busy week: it's another new experience.

Salut! It's been a long time since I last blogged and many would want to discover the reason why? It's because I'm on a temp job! I'm under contract up til 31st Mar. Actually I wanted a date earlier than that but I guess since they give me this opportunity to work, I've got to honour the contract given. I better honour my own word since I first said I wanted to work. But sadly, it is just routine work and I am beginning to feel the tiredness after 3 days of juggling of work and rushing to cell groups and courses. Haiz! I better upload this weariness to God... haha.

Next week would be same routine job for me. But thank God for the opportunity to work with different kinds of people of different stature.. I do hope I can blend into the working surroundings and hope that I do not make more silly mistakes. Next week is also a struggle for lost time as I need to juggle between work and cell outings, cell groups and prayer group meetings..argh pray for me that I will not succumb to weariness and outbreaks haha... and my eyes too... I fear for a certain inclination towards myopia in my eyes.. what can you do when you only face the computer daily... Au Revoir..

Dreams: What's the implication?

I only know of premonition. They can take place in a dream as a sign of a forewarning of future events. But I'm not sure if they ever tell the good things of the future? One thing I do experience is that they can open my eyes to what I have failed to see in the past. A certain dream that I had was so surreal that I could even feel in my sleep. I do admit that I was wailing all the night. And it's really the first time I had ever experienced so deep emotion in my life. Haha over the years my lacrimal glands is not functional properly. It's about time it started utilizing.

What was the dream about? Well, I'm more concerned to decipher the hidden messages, if there are any! But what do you think was about if you see almost all of your 40 plus friends in the same night, much less the same dream! Well, I was with Wilson walking along an unknown location that looked like a combination of Innova JC and NTU. So then I saw many people whom I recognized in the school just as I was walking around the school. Do you think its a sign of a need for more friends?

Instantly i was thrust into the next dream. I cannot remember vividly but I knew I was feeling insecure and the inferiority complex seemed to slowly get the better of me. As it was the similar feeling I had experienced before, somehow in that dream I activated my lacrimal glands to comfort myself. The rest of the time was spent wailing away.. before I managed to compose myself. Does it mean that somehow my subconscious mind is secretly harboring the thought of a lack of self-confidence? Am I still feeling lousy(in secret) even when I knew a higher being is in control of my life?

Well I believe that this 2 dreams on the last day of 2007 sums up my whole of last year: being in a position where I am not letting God take charge of situations ,taking situations in my own hands and letting circumstances overwhelm me. The lack of trust and faith of a higher being could be why it resulted in me not having faith in handling different situations. I must proclaim victory this year.

Yesterday i was feeling really "emo" as in really melodramatic, as in really awkward and emotion, to the extent I feel really downbeat and unmotivated. It happened after dinner like 9pm yo. It just so happen that these days I feel that going to the arcades and pools doesn't edify me. ( But I don't really limit going to these places completely though, but probably I'm starting to feel I've outgrown them... maybe I desire something greater.) I'll probably take this time to explore unchartered aspects of my life say in the music, which I think I have no talent in. Starting with music theory I guess.. I don't want my brain to rot!

My first post.

Hi there! This is my first post. Gone are the days where I will need to scribble down on a notebook about what I see and how I feel about daily happenings. Now that I have a blog, yes a BLOG, I can start getting organized. This is where I will type everything in here, ranging from my devotions, events, feelings etc. This is meant to be somewhat a diary, but in the meanwhile, I shall keep it public. This blog needs some revamping, anyone willing to help me? I'm still new in this, I'm still a 2G, time to upgrade myself to a 3G..

On the last day of 2007..

Hi! Whoever out there. I wanted to blog since time memorial.Ya. You get the idea. A very long time ago, there was this yearning to blog, but I was rather unmotivated to do one. And I was about the writing as that would mean developing my own style of writing and cranking my mind for ideas. Next was the dilemma on whether should I blog in complete sentences or simply phrases... Hmm.. I'll just continue typing with what comes into my mind just like this.. I'm not going to stop...

2007 for me wasn't as fruitful for me as I was struggling in many areas of my life, namely friendship, studies and my personal development.. my approach to life was lukewarm and naturally I was unmotivated and not initiative in my actions. I plan to zero down and work on this areas of my life in 2008..

But i just want to be thankful for the JC experience as it showed me that it wasn't as mind-grueling and as vigorous as many say it would have been. Now that the "A" Level examinations have been attempted, I wouldn't dare say I'm nonchalant about my results as it would reflect my progress last year. Whatever the result may be, I promise I would remain optimistic in my outlook in life.

What have I been doing during the year-end holidays? Simple administrative work carried out in Singapore Expo one week after the "A" level examinations. Exchange Program in Korea on the 9th to 17th Dec'07. Youth/Tertiary camp in NUS till the 20th. And a series of Christmas and New Year Celebration with my family and closest pals. Yay! The new year has arrived... it's the start of something new...